sachisms.

Oh-uh, where did it go?

2011-12-28T18:33:00.000-08:00

I miss this page.

Do you ever wonder what happens to the words that we send
do they bend, do they break from the flight that they take?

It feels funny when I read back the posts dated a few months back. the heartache I felt, the denial I couldn't shake off. We're not even friends now. It's even funnier when I think back of how much I went through and grown in a span of just one year. the hardwork, the late nights, the butterflies in my stomach.

then you realize it's gonna be 2012 in just two days.

it's crazy.

simply because it's signed by Mr. Mraz.

2011-09-10T02:40:00.000-07:00

hold your own, know your name.
if you're shocked it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing.
are the things that make you panic, are the things that make you blow.
everything in no time at all, hearts will hold.

All that I am left with of this week are regrets - pregnant with self-loathing, on my knees with my prayers, clenched fists to keep a straight face. Yet, life can still be so kind. The rain outside is gentle, the air is cool, faint rays of sunshine streaming through my windows. Ginny the fat cat is hogging my lap, making it quite impossible to type.

There is a bridge now.
made by deep contemplations and twisted encounters and unfortunate separations. the builder, I am. will you be the one to step foot on it, will you turn into a stranger in my life too?

with my cousin, Daniel.

2011-09-04T06:55:00.000-07:00

who's just a little older than Aiden.

Liars.

2011-09-04T05:41:00.000-07:00

Gratifying it's been not, for the will wavers with each degrading day. Give thanks to hope for it has always been there, but the shadows know I've given up. I've surrendered long back and they're taking over. What control do you speak of? Stop uttering, you manipulating fools. All that is worth holding onto is my childhood. I was a fighter then.

:)

2011-08-31T19:40:00.000-07:00

It was a good day.

Distraught.

2011-08-28T19:23:00.000-07:00

Naively thinking it was all harmless. The audacity of such beings putting words in my mouth. My message was clear, the intention was nothing but kindness. Be the bigger person, although it terrified me to the bones. You know how it is - it reaches you and it's depressing, the room falls into silence & that last positive feeling evaporates & you ask yourself, how the hell did I even confide in such people?

I'm not ready to lose myself completely.

2011-08-17T21:53:00.000-07:00

When class was cancelled unannounced and everything else was done, I resort to this.

Sweet disposition.

2011-07-24T07:27:00.000-07:00

songs of desperation, I played them for you.

reckless abandon, like no one's watching you.

and we won't stop until it's over, won't stop to surrender.

Chasing time, chasing dreams.

2011-07-02T08:03:00.000-07:00

Note to self : Go earn it.

It's a shame.

2011-06-28T01:08:00.000-07:00

That's the first thing that comes to mind every time I enlarge those thumbnails. like a song that ends with a beginning, but a beginning that forces each side to do the obligated, not the wanted. Nor what used to be.

It's a shame.

If it wasn't for the quaint and cuteness of the huckleberry cafe I wouldn't be voluntarily sitting here waiting in the cold. It is freezing. What makes it worse is that the internet connection here is really slow. The mocha I ordered is not subsiding my hunger & expected friends are stuck in traffic. I'm killing time by cleaning up my itunes and iphoto. Gah, I know I should've brought my novel along but who am I kidding. I'm in a freakin' cafe which is in a freakin' bookstore, I can just grab anything that interests me but I'm too lazy to do so and since I'm too egoistic to admit that I'm too lazy to do so, I'm pointing my fingers at my laptop. and my drink. and I kid you not when I say it is freezing.

So far I'm really enjoying this sem break. All this time given to spend with so many loved ones is really a blessing.

What's very frustrating is my stupid gastric problem -

1. I've been taking my meds (EVERY.FREAKIN.DAY. TWICE A DAY SUMORE)

2. I don't skip meals (LIKE A ROBOT. EAT ALSO GOTTA CHEW SLOWLY AND BREATHE PROPERLY)

3. I stopped drinking milk (I GAVE UP MY FAVORITE CEREAL OK WTF SUCH FAGGOTRY WHY. WHY ME.)

4. I have to control my caffeine intake (I NEEEEEEEED MY COFFEEEE FMLLLLLL I LOVE MY COFFEEEEEEE AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH)

5. I drink plenty of water (I PEE SO MUCH YOU THINK GOING BACK & FORTH TO THE TOILET NICE AH)

and yet I still get attacks and every time it happens, it gets even worse. Excruciating (I AM GONNA DIE WILL YOU REMEMBER ME IF I DIE!?) How now brown cow?

그냥 웃지... 그냥 웃지... 그냥 웃지

웃자... 행복했던 내 어제 처럼.

동방신기 - 여우비

2011-06-21T12:17:00.000-07:00

Four years ago, all these SM songs would've been listened to daily, non-stop. Four years ago, all those big dreams led to this.

Maybe, just maybe, four years from now, I will be so much more.

한번의 미소 마지막 인사

시간에 지쳐도 사랑에 아파도

그 시간 조차 추억이고

마지막 인사를 하네요

내생에 단 한번의 사랑아

안녕

Free.

2011-06-19T05:18:00.000-07:00

It's insane what I grew attached to in the past three weeks. At least, tonight is kind. Grant myself full credits for that. It's as if it was clearly written that at this particular date & time, I will finally snap out of this reverie. One heck of a mind-boggling dream. To think I was so close yet so far at the same time. but why does the mind do this? All of which you know will remain unanswered, why the habit to dwell in its obsoleteness.

It's cold out. I sit here beside the pool listening through old hits & immersing myself in its magic, in every memory it holds. Occasionally I slap my calves to end the annoying itch due to the mosquitoes, and Tasha sits opposite me googling ABRSM while her usual comedy series plays in the background. I think the way we put up the mosquito repellent is quite epic. I just got off the phone with a dear friend who's leaving tonight to pursue his career overseas. He's one of those people where you meet and you just know instantly that you'll be close friends with that person for a very long time. The phone call was full of sighs and good wishes, giggles in between and silly threats that has been said too much, but it never gets too old. So many are so far away now... too many. One is leaving to Adelaide next month too. Another old friend called to check on how I was doing. For the first time, I couldn't recall the things she said we did. To be remembered like that, it feels amazing.

How much time has passed...

Timeless.

2011-06-13T00:52:00.000-07:00

It's like no matter what I do, no matter where I go, this empty feeling simply insists on staying. Everything else is going as planned, but just one. and that one thing is enough to ruin everything else.

So young,

and full of running,

all the way to the

edge of desire.

steady my breathing,

silently screaming,

I have to have you now.

Day by day, it gets harder.

2011-06-08T20:30:00.000-07:00

Reality is sad. Sad is reality.

I dare you to let me be.

2011-05-22T09:44:00.000-07:00

Regret.

That is all I feel right now. That is all I can feel.

What have I gotten myself into?

I'm gonna miss you when you graduate ah ling!

2011-05-20T22:51:00.000-07:00

meet David Ling.

The only guy who'd layan all the poses I ask him to do when we're camwhoring. He even has his own pose (I kid you not, the entire school knows about the 'David Ling pose')

I was gonna end this very random post there

but

think

should

end

with

this

HAHAHAHAHAHA

Hybrid.

2011-05-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

Officially nineteen & I am a very lucky girl. Period.

Currently awake at 5:30am just wasting time and doing things that make me happy. Wasting time is not time wasted hah whoever came up with that line is a genius. and sweet sweet lord it has been so long since I felt this way I feel like a rainbow. Reminiscing on the good things as Ne-Yo, Ingrid Michaelson, Boys2Men & Michael Buble is on repeat on my itunes. All assignments are handed up but I have my finals next week so my long list of korean dramas must wait for another 2 weeks (damn it).

It's ridiculous how much time has passed.

2011-05-15T11:05:00.001-07:00

Aiden who can now walk and run and talk and clap and dance.

gottastoplookingatpicturesifIwantmyassignmentstobedone.

asdfghjkl.

qwertyzxcvbnm.

boobs.

Regrets & mistakes - there are memories made.

2011-05-14T05:51:00.000-07:00

Enough outbursts to cause chagrin and animosity against your own blood and veins. To never go back to where I started, the day ended simply with ignorance and more ignorance. Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? Then with you, you make me realize how it has always been about acceptance, nothing else.

Cake & coffee.

2011-05-02T06:08:00.000-07:00

Even the simplest question led us to something beyond our control.

It is very late, I'm supposed to rush on my assignments but apparently browsing through our pictures and giggling over the silliest things holds more importance to thy self at the current moment. Idiocy at its best. We'll see how will these brief pink moments will matter when submission day is just hours away. Adele21 on heavy rotation while the body is reacting shockingly well to the oldtown coffee drink I had 3 hours ago.

It was such a good day today. Why must it end?

edge of desire.

2011-04-12T06:06:00.001-07:00

The difference between the 19 year old me and the me last year never deteriorates to astonish me. At times it gets a little overwhelming on the bewildered side, but other than that it's all cool. My lifestyle is completely changed. I am in a much happier place. I thought I found my place in that world, but here is where the heart truly belongs.

Mizznina and I

2011-03-21T07:55:00.000-07:00

I will never forget how we (starsally) went crazy over the Abba songs played at Delifrance.

One day, I will find the mojo to update this page properly again.

Tired.

2011-02-27T17:32:00.000-08:00

exams are here, I die.

BUT THAT ALSO MEANS SEM BREAK IS VERY NEAR HEHE.

Do it.

2011-02-18T17:47:00.001-08:00

I've been experimenting a lot these days. I've lost so much, this year endows much patience, me succumbing to theories of auras and vibes or even that look you give me, is typical. The crowd where I got awfully complacent with, God already took four of them away. Not in death, just separation. Not completely, but it was abrupt. with absolute excruciation. Place them all in front of me now, it's still distant. These experiments of mine goes down to the same answer - be positive. Even though what I just did is nowhere near that but the aftermath requires it so be it. Be optimistic. From the start, who would believe me? I thought. Hence, I'll keep it quiet and hidden in a corner where it's pink and happy. Reality is too grey. Pink moments come ever so briefly and when it does occur, troubles are automatically wrapped and stamped away. I had a few pink moments today. I tried to make it last longer.

Random updates :

- raced with a bmw then got a little puzzled why are we still going in the same direction, turns out he's my neighbor omg.

- I still can't reverse park for nuts.

- ... I still can't reverse park for nuts.

- I get very excited driving my car after it's been washed and vacuumed.

- 97% of the scratches on my car are caused by other cipet drivers. 2% JW and 1% me. hehe.

Yes I purposely talked about my car because I've recently fell in love with it again. I love long drives - alone or not. but hor I suck at directions so sometimes I still depend on my parents to send me to places like Klang or Shah Alam. That is until my dad gave me his GPS. Yeah, tough love. and I still get very panicky when I have to drive in the heavy rain omg so fucking scary okay especially when you can't see a bloody thing.

Okay got class now byebye.

In the meantime,

2011-02-17T03:17:00.000-08:00

Aiden says hi.

I keep falling sick recently so I'm gonna go buy fruits and vitamins after I publish this. I hate feeling so aged and sick. Sucks. Just today I was running back & forth to the toilet during a class cause I kept feeling like I needed to throw up very soon. :(

a little unwell.

2011-01-30T02:34:00.000-08:00

Omg! It finally stopped raining! After one whole day of rain, it finally stopped! It was raining since yesterday morning. We were at our cousin's wedding yesterday and my kain got really really wet I had to keep pulling it up to make walking more comfortable. The theme was silver/grey :D

We kept eating ice-cream omg it was so cheap!!! RM2 for three scoops! THREE!!!

Big congrats to my big cousin. :)

Hehe if he has kids I'll be called aunty and my mom will be granny hahahaha I can already imagine her face when she realizes that.

Flutter, forget, and fly.

2011-01-26T22:14:00.000-08:00

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth

mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

speak no feeling no, I don't believe you

you don't care a bit

you don't care a bit.

Every inch, every corner.

2011-01-24T20:45:00.000-08:00

Please bring me back a seashell.

I trotted around and what joy I had, happily thinking of you, thinking of the surprise I'll bring, and a whole bowl of them were presented. But they lie still on my table now. From the same bowl, from eight months ago, from an island 6 hours away. but it didn't matter, cause it was all for you. I'll wrap it nicely in a box, I said. I never had that need to give, but now I do. because it's for you. because you're leaving.

you left.

o hai, I haz big blue bow on mai head!

2011-01-19T21:51:00.000-08:00

Alter ego.

2011-01-19T20:53:00.000-08:00

They just love it when you're clingy and helpless, so don't ever succumb to it.

Happy Thaipusam!!! Last night my youngest sis grabbed onto my dad and asked him if she could go to batu caves today to watch the celebration. I laughed as I nom-ed on my chicken. Speaking of noms, we're gonna have italian lunch later!!! I'm gonna force mom to follow me for some grocery shopping too!!! and I gotta get N's birthday present. like for real this time. I'm very happy. How can I not? Public holidays are the bomb. and I finally get to see my most beloved grandma. Smiles all around people :)

Shadows over shadows.

2011-01-03T06:08:00.000-08:00

joker.

Balance.

2010-12-31T23:12:00.000-08:00

I was looking up because I thought this friend will show up, but of course he was a no-show. like always.

I guess the oddest feeling I'll get is when I write down the date for my notes, which will be a week from now. It feels great being away from everything right before school starts - given the drama, the work, the performances. I get to finally put my feet down and make up to the people I love most for disappearing so much - the family. Not too long later we'll go shoe shopping 'cause the sisters start school tomorrow. Yeah we're very last-minute like that. Very like the mother, if we have time? push it to the last day. It's not a bad thing, it's pretty amusing when you see your own mom panic at what to get for the house or us but gets distracted very quickly at the next shoe/clothes/bag/accessory/book sale. Ah yes, the shopaholic in her. You know when I'm 28 years old, my little brother Aiden will only be 10? sigh. I better kickstart a damn healthy lifestyle if I wanna stay alive to watch him grow and have kids of his own.

Aiden with boobs. ;P

Now that I've resigned from my job (so much fuckery this one. I was lied at, conned and was mistreated just because my boyfriend was working with me too. Stupid, right? Prejudice against us just because we're in a relationship, when this person X is married yet has enough mistresses to satisfy him for life. Dicks. There were few racist issues but let's not go there. Boss was super sweet though, and it's pretty cool knowing a little bit about the retail world. but you know what was the best thing about getting this job right before christmas? that at 8pm every night, I get to see this

Snow! Yes it snows in Malaysia too! Ok its fake its just foam and its smelly but who cares! Snow!

but you know what's even weirder? maybe its because this is my first real job, maybe its because I've met some people who I really bonded and got close with, maybe its because there were reeeaaally nice funny cute customers... I kinda miss this place. which is bad. Because right now I'm just clouded with the good memories, not the bad. and it was mostly bad. The sole reason why I quit was because of a gig offer and because I am no robot, I couldn't juggle both at the same time as it required my full focus and energy, I chose music. Like I always do. and I don't regret it, not one bit.

I'm not sure what I miss more though. I guess, this is what happens when you just leave when you're angry. Just feels... incomplete. Hanging. Awkward. I feel like telling him I'll miss you too when he said he's gonna miss me, but I was trying to keep a straight face so much I just put on a big grin and waved goodbye. This guy, this friend, when words flew with no warning, he was there and comforted me in ways so amazing, that was the first time hot tears ran like wildfire and there I was sobbing in front of someone I barely knew yet at the same time I feel as though we've known each other forever. He didn't even have to say anything. Him just being there, that was all that mattered.) and the last gig has ended, with all this free time I feel like that young carefree girl again. So much time to do all the things I've been wanting to do! Happy face!

Like right now, I can finally blog whatever I want :D :D :D

after finishing the last touches to our x'mas tree. look at Aiden hahaha

the sand beneath our feet, the smell of the ocean air.

Gah I love beach getaways too much...

Hurly-burly.

2010-12-21T09:23:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it's inevitable to get so caught up with your undertaking we forget about the plans we had before this. Annoyance. Forgive me blogger, for you are my tool to release my anger and frustration. Who cares if I can't sleep tonight, I have Bruno Mars serenading me and it feels golden for I never have time for myself at all this month. Even falling asleep scares me because I know when I wake up I'll just keep doing the obligated, not the wanted. Sisters have been staying up most nights watching korean dramas and I envy them to no end. So much freedom. So young and gleeful. This is the first time I'm spending the entire holiday working. It still needs some getting used to obviously because I've been complaining about it way too much to my friends. and why Singapore suddenly so happening wan! Everyone has been holidaying to singapore happily shopping and getting tons of eye candy and eating lots of good and cheap ice-cream! sigh.

If I could keep loving you, I would.

but I didn't.

after this gig I'm quitting.

a slice of happiness.

2010-12-17T10:33:00.000-08:00

Such faggotry.

2010-11-18T05:12:00.000-08:00

Perhaps it's the conversance of this subject, perhaps I'm just mentally deranged. but the minute I try to recall the keywords to each scientific term and I succeed, I drift away into space. My eyes stagnant at my green polka dot curtains and my heart heavy, so very heavy. I hate this feeling. No amount of detachment would work. I'm just not strong enough. I tell myself to buck up and focus on the #1 thing in my to-do list but some threats just can't be deterred. Honestly, if I didn't make that stupid pledge that I'd be a person with better tolerance towards the sad thing called life, I would've said

"You just are. What am I supposed to do. Why do you think I'm still wide awake at this time? I'm so fucking angry I could explode"

but no.

Instead, I apologized and stated that it was a joke. I just LOVE being playful at 3 o'clock in the morning. Your stupidity makes me want to kill myself. But what to do, my stupid egoistical self just wants to prove to LK that I can deal with such things for I will be the person who chooses to take in, swallow, and walk away. cause I can.

Sometimes I wish I'm back to that person with full freedom - I am in command, nothing held me back. Why did I sign up for this again?

Unattractive confidence, I spit at you for stealing yet another could-have-been-productive day away from me. You, stop being such a gaytard that only cares about emotions and feelings. to Time, spare me just a bit more please? I'll share my double-stuf oreo with you if you play nice. It's really good when taken with cold milk. Low-fat if you're on a diet! I can be very considerate. to Sleep, find someone else to taunt. I need to show dad that this isn't a subject easily excelled half-heartedly like he think it is.

Serai Lanjut.

2010-11-10T22:49:00.000-08:00

Not many know this but I was at Serai Lanjut last month to give support to the father for his staff team-building event (I still secretly believe it was also to keep my mind off things after what happened). It's a middle-class resort located in the heart of Pahang and in my opinion, it's doing better than our last visit despite the political caterwaul behind the scenes. Our favorite go-to person got assigned to another resort which just made me so woeful. He is the sweetest! Always smiling, always early, his services are top-notch. or maybe I'm a little biased because he treated us all like one of his own. In other words, we were very well-fed hehe.

He was there to welcome us when we arrived though, dad had called him over. The most vivid memory I have of this trip was the ride there. The long five hour ride. We took two cars due to limited space and I was mom's co-pilot. It was a huge mistake leaving the house at 3.30pm because when it reached dusk, we were already in the village area where the roads are just long and narrow and constricted and lengthy and there were absolutely zero street lights. I kid you not. What is the government doing? and people still wonder why there are brutal accidents happening on similar roads? We were surrounded with pitch blackness and the only light we could rely on was dad's car light in front of us. Then it started pouring cats and dogs. Then I saw this in the midst of the sky

It was ongoing for one solid hour, my heart started palpitating and at one point, I was ready to die. What's worse, I knew that my parents were having a hard time driving in that condition. There was no signal too so I couldn't tell JW and my best friends how much I love them before I die hahaha. I tried to overcome my trepidation then I realized, hey, you don't get to see this much in KL, might as well just enjoy it. It was beautiful - it was as if it took pride in its beauty but I couldn't help to think that the situation was exactly like those in a thriller movie. Hahaha okay I better stop here before my readers think I'm a real nutcase.

I've been to many beaches this year but I think I took advantage of it this time.

cause all I did was sleep in.

It's not like I was confined to the other activities, I was just not up to doing anything. The interesting things we did over the trip was driving to the nearest town to buy a cheap dvd player to finish the 2nd part of big bang theory, buy take away kfc, rode a buggy then buggy got stuck and dad was the hero (again), made a fool out of myself every time I saw a tiny crab at the beach, danced with the staffs after dinner, had huge bugs in our drinks during dinner, went to visit Tok Tam in Kuala Pilah and... that's pretty much it.

"Deanna Deanna look look something's moving!!!"

My grandma whom we all love to bits.

I think I was high. I think.

Parents (:

Beautiful shots taken by Sasha who is now snoring beside me after a long night of video-taking.

Marciano's.

Robots.

2010-11-09T05:43:00.000-08:00

Did you get my message, the one I left while I was trying to convince everything that I meant in a minute or less when I called to confess And make all of my stresses go bye-bye.

Amazing. I was feeling so angry a moment ago but after listening to a little of Jason Mraz and chatting with the two loveliest friends in my life, I am back again in peace. My heart dies a little inside knowing one of this two is going off to another state next year. But we'll be fine. and when we meet up we'll talk and laugh like how it was for us when we first met in March. The other person won't fail to bewitch me with nagging thoughts in my head - when did I get so lucky? The day came for us to celebrate, and celebrate we did. Him and his surprises.

I know.

Red carpet moment!

2010-11-08T06:22:00.000-08:00

Who wants to go to Hollywood?

Who doesn't like photo booth?

2010-11-04T07:16:00.000-07:00

I spent most of my Friday morning making soft kitty cries to come out less intimidating to my new kittens but um it didn't work. There was progress? I think. Having too many cute living forms in this house is making me worried. I swear to God one day I'll blow up due to excessive cuteness of Aiden, my new kittens and my crazy-slash-dorky grandmother.

At times I honestly don't know myself anymore. Now is the perfect time for me to hit the sack but I'm more appealed to blog than sleep. How very queer, I know. Especially for a person who values her sleep time more than anything else. My eyes are watery and my head is spinning. I've been on heels for long hours and adding to the fact that I haven't been exercising in ages, my feet and my calves are aching too.

I had a delightful conversation with a friend as it stressed on trust and kindness. It was more of his insights on people with wacky personalities and how it should be tackled harmlessly. I was feeling as if there was insufficient space and time for me to find myself to be happy again in college. I couldn't place my finger on what was the problem. Or deep down I knew, but I didn't want to admit it anyway. But ah, here I am, three days later and I'm jollier than a jolly stick wtf.

Random fact (before I go to sleep heh) : I have so many sleeping pictures of you I can actually make a scrapbook out of it.

Here's my share on some of my photo booth moments.

Purpose of photo : We look alike.

Chocolate Lounge is waaay better than Starbucks. Me and Kim's favorite chilling place.

Daniel getting some serious whooping from Frank.

This crazy woman is going to come over at 8am tomorrow so... (8AM WTFFF)

Rant #3

2010-10-27T07:14:00.000-07:00

I just had a mild heart attack. Not literally but still, the sudden appearance of a sibling right behind you for a period of time when you're engrossed in reading a good blog resulted the house vibrating with my high-pitched sound waves. I also learned that it is not desirable at any given point for you will also alert others who has better things to do like sleeping other than running up in the middle of the night to check up on you. Haha stupid sister. She just stood there silently while I was having a conversation with a friend about food via skype.

So, updates?

Finals are coming up. Semester one is ending. Long break, then Christmas, then New Year's. This year, being eighteen? Fucking awesome. So many life-changing experiences, so many lessons learned, so many nice people, so many bad people, so much love, so much anger, so much music and so little sleep. If I could, I want to be eighteen forever. If I had the strength, I would choose to keep loving you.

and I did.

My day in college today was pretty bleak. My low tolerance towards the little things in life such as tardiness or people yelling when not necessary just made me a big ball of agitation. What is up with seniors anyway? One time they're so charming and nice and the next they make you feel so unwanted, you question yourself whether the former was genuine or not. Right now I'm simply detaching myself from all of these things.

Being the hedonist that I am, I find solitude in watching a choice of a television series very rejuvenating. Tonight it's the big bang theory. Chuck Lorre, the producer of two and a half man, is a genius. The casts are perfect for the roles, the script is remarkably witty, and the physics and craziness in it gets you thinking. A lot. Sometimes I would've to rewind to try and understand what Sheldon and Leonard is saying to not absorb it all blindly. Scientific terms and scientist's theories. Times like these I regret not paying full attention during Science / Physics / Chemistry / History class.

Speaking of geniuses, here's a guy I adore to bits for he has a heart bigger than the world.

meet kevin the Tomato (:

because what you hate won't change anything.

2010-10-25T18:36:00.001-07:00

"Art - all art - is a form of activism, a force of change. Whether you are singing a serious folk song or listening to someone jam on the guitar, you're unleashing the power of music to create a sense of community, a sense of togetherness, a desire to unite black and white, male and female, young and old. We are all members of the human family. If someone says you are a certain kind of person because you listen to one kind of music, don't let them."

Eat, pray, love.

2010-10-19T23:11:00.000-07:00

So here I am sitting in a cafe blasting music into my huge-ass headsets and this awesome song with awesome guitar solo is playing and I feel like breaking into a dance.

Hug?

2010-10-13T15:49:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired.

I'm having the worst cramps in my life.

Isn't it sad? When you think you're already in a lot of pain, you think of those who have to go through chemotherapy and you just can't imagine what level of pain THEY are experiencing?

I'm so tired.

Everyone has amazing stories.

2010-10-11T19:16:00.000-07:00

At times I feel like I'm the richest person in the world. I have a great family, I have food at home, I'm perfectly healthy, I have awesome friends, I'm in love and I'm loved, and some mornings? I get to wake up to this :

He is my most effective alarm clock :D

On a totally unrelated note, why are there still girls who are ashamed of crying? No, you're not cool. No, you don't impress anyone, not even yourself.

I digress.

2010-10-09T22:26:00.000-07:00

So I have this really bad habit of constantly browsing through my collection of pictures. E-ve-ry time I open my Mac. Without fail. Thousands of pictures over the years I started getting myself into photography. It is that joy of stealing and freezing that moment for my own viewing pleasure or sharing with those who share that same interest. Some shots are viewed quickly, some I value more than others. I will never get bored of doing this the problem is just I get so engrossed by doing so, I forget about my priorities FML.

Anyway, the point of this post was not to brag about this actually. I just stumbled across few photos which triggered a wonderful moment I had yesterday.

One of my best friends, Miso, called me from Korea (:

This girl and I, we go way back. From sharing our love for DBSG when we were 15 to expressing our love towards each other through vulgarity at 18. Ah yes. This girl and I, we go way back. But long story short hopefully she'll be visiting next month and I will finally be able to pull her hair for disappearing so much. Isn't that exciting! I know I'm pumped!

After Korea's Teenage Festival last year. Few weeks before SPM, which is the reason why many others stayed home studying. That was a fun night. I remembered it was raining very heavily and I was very very nervous and scared. But as soon as I reached her doorstep, I knew everything was going to be alright. Her mom is one of those mothers you'll feel comfortable with instantly. Ya know the ones deep down you just know they're very very cool? I know lots of cool moms.

Those who are embarrassed by their own mothers really don't know how much they're missing out on. Seriously. They're fun PMS-ive dorks. Start loving.

Burger King, KLIA, white horse.

2010-10-05T02:57:00.000-07:00

Hanim before she flew to Egypt to pursue her studies. It was worth the trip to drive all the way to KLIA just to bid this lady farewell. To the one I call 'Eyebrows', be patient, when I get a BB, it'll feel like I'm beside you all the time wtf.

Her holding Aiza's handmade calendar. It was the most creative thing I saw (:

My best friend.

2010-10-04T07:35:00.000-07:00

I have other best friends too, don't get me wrong. Yes, I know it doesn't apply to the term 'best' but whatever lah! We asians can do anything we want! Anyway, as I was snapping away a wave of nostalgia hit me. Few years ago, I remember taking this shot on her birthday.

When we were 14.

And this was taken on her 18th celebration :

Hehehe. Cute right?

Uh-hmm (:

2010-10-04T07:04:00.000-07:00

Long story short, I couldn't stand the music they were playing so I walked up to the DJ, asked if I could take over instead, and there I was.

That was the happiest 5 hours of my life.

Change.

2010-10-01T07:28:00.000-07:00

Ah, isn't it refreshing having this look as my layout now? Change. For the light of what comes tomorrow for us slowly fades into music. Change.

"If I weren't such a dork, I'd be really awesome"

2010-09-27T06:02:00.000-07:00

Rant #1

2010-09-23T07:52:00.000-07:00

I was trying so hard, but I failed. I fell asleep in class FML. Ugh it was like someone drugged me or something, I even slapped myself three times but I was still dozing off unintentionally. The lecturer caught me dozing off and me trying to wake myself up and he said loudly (more like announcing) "Sachie, go wash your face and run a mile then come back to class" and because I sat at the back, everyone turned at me and stared. Okay I admit that was a little too creepy. It was like waiting for my death sentence or something. Anyway, I usually sit in the front cause I'm such a wannabe-geek like that *brushes off shoulder* but today was an exception 'cause my school does this thing where it chooses when it should be freezing cold or when it should be blazing hot. Today it chose to be freezing cold. For three friggin' hours. Shudder.

Anyway this is just an update proving my existence in this planet earth (unfortunately) and now this nuisance has to go to bed. Nightsy pantsy!

Yours truly doing the 'wtf' hand gesture in One Utama too tired to walk&shop thanks to my Mac while Kim was inside happily avoiding the two over-friendly topshop workers.

Beauty in everything.

2010-09-15T08:37:00.000-07:00

It is so amusing seeing how calling Sasha "SHASHA" really annoys her. And my dad? He will never grasp on the fact that I like/drink coffee regardless of the times of me saying it to his face. It will always end with a "since when?" and us sighing rolling our eyes at the back. Hehe!

I know the heart of life is good.

2010-09-13T05:24:00.000-07:00

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight, let's just fix this whole thing now.

Oh yesh, them sleepless nights are back. I never missed you, don't worry. Almighty September is moving very quickly. Right now all I want is for time to stop. It felt so good to be away from all the work for a while. Now back to reality! Honk! Another ICA in 3 weeks & it'll be worse than the one before FML.

Soon I'll be drawing up plans for my December break. Huh, already. Cepatnya masa berlalu.

I know that you hide, alone in your car.

2010-09-11T04:13:00.000-07:00

I'd always pour everything as I type away but it always be saved as draft. Waiting there silently, patiently. Compromised into thinking it'll ever go public when in reality it won't.

"See, this is why I am a person with such close relationships with my family. Because people out of the circle, they are just not worth it. The more attention I put on them, I'd only get stressed."

So far my Eid celebration has been very satisfying. No complains there. Everything seems to be falling into place the way it should be. I'm waiting for my parents to get ready as we have another house to go to later. What surprises me this year is how drained I am! All my life I've never felt this tired when celebrating Raya. Its like all my energy has been totally sucked out of having fun. Making the best out of it I believe. Especially when college starts tomorrow. At first I was so much in denial, not accepting the fact that we only get three-day leave. But now I am so excited for more practices and classes. Want want want. Ngap!

so tell the DJ to play it.

2010-09-08T12:24:00.000-07:00

I think, I have decided to blog the way I used to. With more words, in definition.

I am going to rant so much you'll be so sick of elongated posts here. It's going to be side-by-side with quotes so corny you'll cringe in your seat. It will be so metaphorical and dramatic you'll want to shoot me in the head for being such a drama queen.

Okay? Okay.

but first, let me be vain.

take that!

and it goes on and on.

2010-09-08T08:25:00.000-07:00

Him & his surprises :)

2010-09-07T21:13:00.000-07:00

I was clueless. We got lost at first, then it started raining heavily.

pair of dull scissors under the yellow light.

2010-09-06T10:08:00.000-07:00

I got back home after a long day at college, two exams happen to fall on the very same day and the gap in between was about four hours plus. I straight fell onto my bed and drifted to sleep. I woke up to the heat of the sun coming from my window on my left, shining on for God knows how long. I was still in my jeans. It wasn't delightful. But as I looked up? What I saw totally put a smile on my face.

Little pink shiny dots floated on the ceiling like stars. I wasn't sure where it came from, I thought I was dreaming. Then I realized it came from the small handbag I brought to college today. Hehe pink stars, what do you know. I just stared in awe and wished you were next to me to see this together.

Me room. Me pink room.

mmm.

2010-09-04T03:19:00.000-07:00

WHY NO PINKBERRY /denial

2010-08-30T12:10:00.000-07:00

Him and his new toy. What sucks is he wanted us to get it together but it was such a hard request to be sent to dad. and what sucks even more is that JW said I'll love it so much I love it more than I love him haha! That was the first time I saw him so excited over picture-taking. Ouch. My butt is aching from sitting too long. How does one nerd off without getting their butt sore from sitting too long. How now brown cow. Bow wow shmow frow. Want sleep ):

It's going to be 4am soon and I hear fireworks outside. Weird. While we were skinny dipping earlier we saw a family of four walking around the area with lighted lanterns. It was so pretty but I wasn't sure what was it for. We have new neighbors in the opposite house. I think they had more than two house-warming parties. I dislike their dog, always barking at my kittens. Scaring them away while my precious kitties are pooping. I hissed at it once before leaving for college. It looked like it wanted to eat me alive wtf.

I hate it when I get a headache thinking of all the clashing of plans and the adding of plans. I just cannot wait for September. It will be my shopping month, Hari Raya, Kim's birthday, dates with JW he owes me (evil laugh in cue!) and... shopping month. I haven't shopped in so long I'm practically a virgin in shopping. Wow so much rambling I blame my ICAs on this.

sometimes, you just gotta embrace your inner bitch.

2010-08-30T10:52:00.000-07:00

Family :)

Yes there is seven of us. We should form some sort of girl group heh. Oh speaking of which! My dad was asking for korean videos for Sasha from his dvd guy and the whole night he kept dancing Sohee's part from the dance of Nobody. He said its the new talk-to-the-hand gesture haha. If my dad can accept korean entertainment so easily like that, this gives me true hope that anything is possible. Seriously.

satisfaction.

2010-08-29T08:57:00.000-07:00

wake up call.

2010-08-27T10:08:00.000-07:00

Coldplay's Fix You on replay tonight. Ah, this brings back memories of Kim and I at PD. We were sitting at one corner of the bridge, stargazing while listening to this song. That was the first time I fell in love with this - its lyrics, its meaning, the epic climax of the music video. Moments in between we took pictures that turned out so funny and ridiculous we just spent the whole night laughing and talking. While sharing chocolate. (:

I'm spoiled, by your love.

2010-08-22T14:47:00.000-07:00

OMFG

2010-08-20T08:43:00.000-07:00

Alter ego

2010-08-20T08:08:00.001-07:00

Put me in a love song.

Funny. so very funny. I will now move on with life, and when they show they genuinely care, you know I'll be there (:

where troubles melt like lemon drops, high above the chimney tops.

2010-08-18T07:27:00.000-07:00

Simply satisfactory. (:

bites.

2010-08-16T09:16:00.000-07:00

This was when I sulked over our 2nd month and he dropped by the next morning to give me the golden touch to wipe off the remaining residues of a hurtful night. I was still fixing my hair when I got that surprise call. Till this very day this picture puts up a smile on my face. I was very happy that day. Moments later the fam & I went over for lunch in celebration of Mother's Day :)

Ah, the month of May.

until the midnight sun.

2010-08-15T09:17:00.000-07:00

"He was playing video games and lost track of time. By the time he showed up it was too late. And when he did show up he acted like it was no big deal. Like I was overreacting. Why do boys do that? Why do they always have to justify everything? Why can't they just say sorry?"

how not to miss this place?

2010-08-15T02:49:00.000-07:00

zis flutter.

2010-08-15T00:39:00.000-07:00

A&W's waffles are ze best.

ze Alexis with ze monkey. I love you monkey.

ze Dome with ze other monkey. I love you other monkey.

ze Italiannies. zis was a surprise from him cause he knew I wanted to come here for quite awhile. I haz a fetish for pastas, but it wasn't as good as I thought it'd be. California Pizza Kitchen is still ze best.

ze cupcakes from ze other other awesome peoples. We love you other other awesome peoples.

Distractions.

2010-08-12T10:29:00.001-07:00

I didn't know where I was going, and I wasn't sure about what I was going to do when I've finally reach a destination. I kept driving, and driving. Following every familiar road while my mind spew out various ideas of things I could do if I went there. or there, or there. Every idea seemed perfect, if I was myself last year that is. But now I just wouldn't kill to do things alone like I used to. I knew I couldn't go home, not at that time anyway. Having your heart broken like that I knew I had to make a decision fast and stick to it. Plus the weather just loves being badass, the longing for an air-conditioned place got into an even higher intensity. So I parked, ran, and sat at a place that holds many memories in my heart.

Two things that made my day that day - the lady who was the owner asked if I was a student, asked for my age and just when I started getting uncomfortable, she said I reminded her of her daughter. Then I heard her saying "ho leng ar" under her breath, which she then translated and said it to me in english before I left. Funny thing is, I felt nothing close to 'leng' that day. Puffy eyes from crying, bloatedness from PMS. Even if she was lying? It was sweet. At least I got to smile like an idiot for that few moments while walking back down to my car :)

The other? Two guys totally boosted my confidence even more. Such, is life.

This man is a genius. But why is his album not selling here :(

Aiden.

2010-08-11T09:44:00.000-07:00

my favourite spot.

2010-08-11T09:32:00.000-07:00

where I spend most of my mornings

and free time between classes. :)

"I am gabberflasted!"

2010-08-09T18:17:00.000-07:00

CANNOT WAIT FOR SEPTEMBER!!!!

No regrets, honey.

2010-08-06T05:05:00.000-07:00

When he finally opened up to me during our karaoke session. He's so shy to sing sometimes I have to really force it out of him. But sometimes when I force he say I pressure what the -_- Damn cute now he's so confident singing the mic's all his haha...

There was a slave auction in my college today. Got tricked into thinking it was a student council meeting. No wonder attendance was compulsory! I was super reluctant to go but my seniors kept saying I'd get into trouble if I skip it but wow it was so worth the wait. The slaves was us first semester students. I had to draw with my knees, on Ramin's back in just ten seconds! It turned out so ugly and ridiculous. I got to see 'Suzy' sing Wonder Girls's Nobody with 5 tiger biscuits in his mouth lol (he wasn't allowed to swallow). There were other funny games but the most epic one was when 6 guys had to compete in pole dancing. Oh. my. god I've never seen something so obscene and funny at the same time. I laughed so much, I got a headache.

fuckyeahjapanesefood!

2010-08-05T09:17:00.000-07:00

Ichiban Boshi is the place to go. Seriously. If you want to try the best dolsot bibimbap, ever? like, EVER? Go to the Kimchi restaurant at Tropicana City. It was SO good and it was so freakin' cheap! GO NOW LAH BABI (sorry too excited when it comes to good food heh)

If I was offered a job with travel&living, I will drop out of college ASAP and drag my loved ones along I don't care!

M.A.D charity dance show @ Ministry Of Sound

2010-08-05T09:03:00.000-07:00

Totally loved the salsa and indian dance - the energy, the passion. Plus it was my first time seeing THAT many hot girls and guys all dressed up for an event. Seriously I'm not joking on how hot they were. Sizzling, okay? When I first entered MOS it was such a seductive feeling, like the air was full with seduction. But I think that it all had to do with the dim lights and all those girls in short tight glittery dresses. So very pretty. We were also given goody bags, got a free voucher for O'brien sandwiches omg . Others include celebrity fitness, follow me body wash, starhill's spa and a free pen. Not bad, eh? It was a cool experience :)

during Sasha's 'korean' 13th birthday.

2010-08-05T08:59:00.000-07:00

:)

2010-08-04T17:59:00.000-07:00

"Listen closely - The only time it's too late to change yourself is when you're dead. Until then, you're simply making excuses or lying to yourself."

macaroons ♥

2010-08-04T06:22:00.000-07:00

I got one last chance to get myself together.

2010-08-03T18:17:00.000-07:00

So this past week has been very terrible with JW as we constantly fought and when the word separate arose, all hell broke loose wtf. Yes I can joke about it now but those angry tearful nights were simply awful. I actually bother to blog about it here... just, because. I've changed so much after being with him, maybe this time it was just too fast. So right! (bimbo mode on) Yesterday was my first time trying macaroons! woohoo! I think they're amazing - crispy on the outside and when you bite it just melts in your mouth. At first I only see pictures of them from the net and I know, for sure, its not available here. THEN! while I was going through magazines at O'briens I read one article that said BSC sells this. So do the typical manja-manja to JW then kau tim! hahaha.

Huckleberry cafe :)

waiting...

2010-07-27T19:58:00.000-07:00

I'd do more justice with updating this page.

2010-07-24T11:03:00.000-07:00

I'm not so sure as to why I'm still awake at this hour, and wasting it all on internet usage? This feels so fifteen. Either its the 10 things I still need to do or I am just excited using this Mac at a new place - its cozy, its cold, and Michael Buble is playing on mtv. I am alone tonight, the air moves with Deanna's heavy snoring and around me lies the cutest teacups of green tea leftovers. There are just so many good things that happened today. My to-do list just won't stop multiplying though, leaving me a panting ball of weak stamina resulting in sleep deprivation.

"then I'll be superwoman."

Juggling both college and personal life is beyond my reach as for now, but so far it has been a joy ride. I found people slightly above my level of crazy, and they have been the greatest bunch. My body's screwed with McD and mamak food because that's all we're fed. Therefore my trusty spongebob tupperware has been of good use.

Okay very tired now, masa untuk tidur. selamat malam! (:

this instant.

2010-07-16T09:24:00.000-07:00

♥ ♥ ♥

2010-07-15T08:16:00.000-07:00

"Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time.
Surely you can take some comfort knowing that you're mine"

If she dared me I'd do it, love makes you stupid.

2010-07-12T08:02:00.000-07:00

I admit I have been very biased with blogging. Here, filtration is very much required. Or it felt like it, at some point?

new earfood addition : Beirut, Bruno Mars, and Jamie Scott.

wishful thinking.

2010-07-08T06:25:00.000-07:00

"I'll swallow my pride, and I'll be alive."

I'm a flower, soaking in the rain.

2010-07-03T07:00:00.000-07:00

and this place shall be used to share the times I had in Genting. the above picture was taken on the second day. I remember waking up early and getting very excited about breakfast. buffet baby, need I say more?

In short :

Kim & I didn't ride much.
Sue Yii got sick on the second day.
Aiza and Madihah AND Sue Yii damn gila ride on everything.
The dudes joked about every single thing (and laughed at every single thing).
Someone got terribly drunk :P
Everyone lacked sleep. 'cept Madihah HAHA
No one layaned the 3 in 1 coffees and milos I brought along! okay, I joke, some got drink lah but still... I was so excited... I brought the biggest luggage.
We got bitten by gila banyak mosquitoes when walking outside of our hotel.
I LOVED the weather.
Met a guy who told us he lost all his moneys on a betting.
While walking back saw him again with a lady shouting about it.
Had two hazelnut hot chocolate in two days (starbucks ♥).
First experience with hand wax!
Saw JR's underwear hanging in the toilet. then spotted it again, only this time hanging on the lamp in the living room wtf.
Am not sure how many times I changed during this trip...
Am not sure how much I spent too...
Lady Zaza got herself some cool funky shades. Lots of cute things that attracted us there eventhough its also selling back here in KL haha.
I've never seen so many families gathered in one place at the same time! not in this way!

We made some really kick-ass videos with Za's laptop. If it didn't have photo booth, we wouldn't have seen this beastly sides of each other. and bond in unimaginable ways, God bless us all.

and yes, that is pimple cream on my face. I love you guys :')

♥

2010-07-01T18:30:00.000-07:00

Dr.Seuss

2010-07-01T18:14:00.000-07:00

“Be who you are and say what you feel : because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”

♥

2010-06-29T08:45:00.000-07:00

the other things that makes life worth living.

2010-06-27T19:05:00.000-07:00

the weather has been damp and gloomy, all making this sleepiness the more intense. Even photo booth is not making me look as radiant and fair when its sunny outside. Today is one of those test days - getting myself out of bed early on a holiday and doing something for someone I love and just absorbing all the optimism and kindness. My school is going to start very soon and I know when it comes I will have to deal with all the odd hours and work pressure. and people. The petty, tardy, rowdy side of people. Am not looking forward at the redundancy of the situation but I'm pretty sure I have a good outlook at what's to come next week.

When I first blogged about my semester break a few weeks ago I mentioned the joy I would be having of being a teenage girl when reunited with my best friends - indulging in all the cute girly stuffs, everything bedazzling and pink-ish. guilt over sinful food and time wasted on television. exchanging gossips as judgmental clouds float above all that bimbotic things you'd see most in american movies. oh what fun we had. I've got to catch up with most of my best friends this month whom I barely got to meet up with after SPM. It was different this time. It was better. Much better. At first you're thrown into the obvious what a big influence the distance has made us into, but it turned out really good. Wiser. More mature. Less pain, less confusion. More sharing and more giving. I thought the distance was making our relationship go down the drains, but it was actually for the better.

omg I just found some old pictures of JW during his high school years. There's a folder of him semi-nude, and wet. A trip to sunway's water theme park, supposedly...

*Usher's OMG song plays*

TEEHEE!

Hi.

2010-06-23T20:55:00.000-07:00

as the guys bonded over foosball in the student centre, I hogged his laptop and move the cursor down, double-clicking on photo booth. my self-entertaining moments knows no boundaries. no boundaries I tell you.

#1 I like the background. makes it look like I'm an artsy person who owns an artsy wall.

#2 got milk?

#3 some people from the ministry of education came and everyone started clapping with perfect upright postures. I think that was hilarious 'cause I thought everyone was required to stand and so I did. I wasted 10 minutes of my time FML

#4 a new trick to pass time when you're gonna go through a long car ride. do not distract the driver though, veli dangelous. I am grateful for being alive haha

teaser! haha no, there's just too many pictures...

2010-06-21T21:59:00.000-07:00

I've never paid much attention to that, City Of Entertainment. just last weekend it was my first time having the chance to experience it myself. Yup, how sad is that? I have been a local for over 18 years now, never have I been to Genting Highlands.

more pictures of the dudes and dudettes soon. it was an awesome, fun-filled, exciting 3D 2N trip. but now I gotta go, JW's coming in about ten minutes and I haven't had my morning coffee yet! CIAO!

sugarcane in the easy morning, weathervanes my one and lonely.

2010-06-21T20:49:00.000-07:00

"Well, then I'm just going to have to tell you something. Something I learned just a few days ago. You're not dead. As a matter of fact, nobody ever dies. You want to know why? Because you're gonna live inside everybody who ever knew you. Everyone you ever touched. No matter how little. And, the people who love you, your mom, your uncle dennis, your friends at school, they're never going to stop thinking about you. Or talking about you. They're never going to forget you cause that never goes away. You're never going to die because you were loved. And you loved. You're gonna live forever. We all will"
- Melinda Gordon, GWS5

I am guilty.

2010-06-16T04:32:00.000-07:00

Guilty of having no absolute power in proper time-managing, or control my lust over cute pink things and food. When he crossed the gates I realized the new addition to his wardrobe. His shirts are always a little too short, and this was no different. I thought how original, how cute. How you. So so you. After much anticipation our 100^th day together is finally here. It was no surprise how we just stayed indoors, I was still too tired from the Terengganu trip and due to our budgets it was best just chilling at my place having lunch and feeding each other ice-cream. It was like any other day, him going through a heaty conversation with his elderly, me procrastinating when I was suppose to finish homework, the many I love yous and his warm teddy hugs. I wasn't able to get him anything when he got me the prettiest gift ever. and that is why I am guilty, I feel so bad for not being able to throw in a little twist in the end like he did.

and like any other day, he'd accidentally fall asleep after a tiring day at college and wake up apologizing for falling asleep hahaha.

Happy 100^th day baby ♥
here's to us, and to the many many more days to come. please stop tickling my feet or I'm gonna fart at your face TEEHEE.

btw, Tanjung Jara Resort was the shit.

worth the butt-aching rides. Dungun has the best keropok lekor ever!!! hands down!!! and the sun there is a tad bit too hot. All in all it was a lovely retreat :)

it is freezing in here!

2010-06-09T04:35:00.000-07:00

it is not fun being broke. nuh-uh, not fun at all.

I have got to snap back into reality - that all of this is just temporary. and as much as I hate to admit it, it is too damn good to be true. Let's yield to the fact that I am only eighteen, but why do I feel obligated to chase time and time again? what would I do without a camera seriously. I am such a forgetful person I don't remember capturing such moments and when I do stumble upon them, it feels as good as unwrapping a gift :) JW can you please get yourself a camera so I could see the people and places you go to? then you can take pretty pictures of me HAHA *tak malu face*

ain't Aiden the cutest :)
weeee :D

put mom and JW in and this would be THE perfect shot.

wtf.

a time he failed to give me attention, and a time I failed to understand that he was gonna sit for his finals. KEKEKE.

its so cold omg. deanna is smelly and hairy. the end 8D
(she's just right beside me bugging me to go watch Psych with her now. yeah that explains it all hahaha annoying monkey.)

for you are standing there, loving me.

2010-06-02T18:23:00.000-07:00

so much delaying here, I'm sorry blog, with my new car I'm barely home and when I am home I'll be too tired to even go online. btw everyone thinks I'm getting a little obsessed with my car. well I beg to differ! I think its pretty normal to apologise to your car when you drive over a bumpy road. can feel her pain, okay? stupid road. and calling her baby is also a common thing, why do you guys look at me like I'm an alien. oh and I refuse to take out the plastic thing covering the seats in my car hahahaha. but my mom made me do it... I'm not even letting JW drive her cause he's a mad driver wtf. just joking. he's good, but I'm better. oh, yeah. :)

anyway, because I will never get what is it exactly that I want to say here (haha) I'll just share some pictures of... everything wtf. I'm enjoying every moment of this semester break, and I'd be lying if I said I am not scared of what's to come in July. so yes, gotta enjoy this hols while it lasts :)
best PD trip to date. two hotels in two nights, woot!

pre-birthday dinner with JW, my only exception ;)

because he is that sweet.

WOO SHE SO PRETTY HERE HAHAHAHAHA love you shtupid monkey.

okay gotta go help mom kopek petai now wtf BUHBYE

my new love, my baby.

2010-05-28T22:27:00.000-07:00

best birthday present e-ver.

all of my friends (or even strangers wtf) should know its my lifelong dream to have my OWN car. be it kancil, or a rundown taxi wtf. the only thing I was a little puzzled was the plate number, why 4290! why not 1805? or my family's 5888. okay time to splash some pink in this baby and its perfect.

off to PD for the weekend. vroom vroom ;)